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Wednesday, July 15, 2009 @ 6:27 AM
Was walking up the slopes to school this morning.And suddenly dark clouds covered the faint sunlight. The sky which became very dark was in total contrast of my mood at that time. I was in total high spirits, anticipating and looking forward to reach school. I actually wanted to thank someone with utmost gratitude for helping me to keep homework and notes for tuesday. ( because i was not in school ) The cool breeze that meets my face made me feel even happier, for it was not often that the weather became so cooling:) ***** In the end, i realised that the person whom i have trusted did nothing for me at all. All i get was a black face. To speak the truth, i'm very disappointed. So i was the one being stupid and foolish to believe. So it was actually my own childish thinking, my own imagination. I was so glad that someone could help me, so happy planning to thank that person (i even prepared a small gift), when my hopes all came crashing down into nothing. Everything was my own stupid thinking. So much for trusting you. 原来这一切都是我愚蠢的想法. I feel so stupid. I feel so retarded. To have believed what u said. Everything. I should have never trust you again. But i was stupid. To be hurt again and again. If that was all, i would not have been so disappointed. But why a black face? 我难道做错了吗？ 我做了什么呢？ I kept thinking about these questions repeatedly. But i got no answer. Nothing. I really don't understand why do you have to treat me this way. Did i really do something wrong? If yes, what? I really don't understand. I'm not a toy. I have feelings. I will feel hurt. I will feel pain. I will feel happy. I will feel sad. I don't like being treated as a toy. When you are happy, you smile to me. When you become angry (and for this time i really dont know why), you give me a black face. Do you understand how i feel? 为什么被遗忘的人总是我呢？ 你是否有顾虑过我的感受呢？ 你的感受是感受，那我的感受何尝不是感受？ 我也希望能够被体谅啊。 你为什么要这么对我呢？ ***** TRUST. What's trust exactly? Can someone define for me? Please? I can feel that this word is drifting further and further away from me. How to trust? When you are being hurt so many times, do you still dare to trust? Stupidly blindly trusting ended up being hurt. So i decided to take small steps. Right. In the end, the trust is still broken. I never thought you will treat me like this. I'm not only hurt, but disappointed. Disappointed in you. But don't worry. If you hate me so much, i won't disturb you anymore. I will not talk to you anymore. But, I just want you to know that, i am really very disappointed. 我不知道我为什么需要容忍你莫名其妙的情绪化。 我默默地忍受着，你知道是多么地辛苦吗？ ***** Valerie |